The Beginning

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Did you forget about me???

This is given to me by Phil from So You Say You Want a Resolution Thanks!

The instructions that come along with this award are as follows:

1. Copy the image and display it on your blog.
2. List 10 things that make you happy.
3. Try to do at least one of them today.
4. Pass on the award to 10 bloggers who brighten your day.

Ten things that make me happy…..

1. Losing Weight
2. Nice Gestures from everyone
3. Meeting and succeeding my goals
4. The clean refreshing feeling after something has been cleaned/organized
5. Fitting into a smaller size
6. Brightening up someone else's day
7. Knowing that I can depend on myself
8. Giving
9. Laughing with someone
10. Taking a relaxing vacation

Did you forget about me???
Hahaha.... I hope not! Well things are going pretty dang well!! I got a little off track... but all is good. Last week (the day after my last blog entry I SWEAR) I flew to my hometown and spend a couple days up there, then my father and I drove back down to Florida... fun stuff let me tell you. I did enjoy spending time with him, however 18 hours in a car.... not really my cup of tea. So I got back on Sunday and was exhausted because we drove straight through. Yesterday I didn't get home until really late, I went car shopping. So I apologize for not being here... but rest assure I AM FAR FROM QUITTING!!!

So I told you that I went to Bahamas Breeze for my anniversary... and I had to have some onion rings. Well... this is the honesty circle and well I honestly ate every single one of them :o( I felt good though.. I felt that I didn't do so bad. I was discussing this with my mom when she encouraged me to go online and look up the nutritional values... so I did and I tallied all the things I ate up, and then the onion rings. I was shocked! I couldn't believe it! I was just recently reading a book that encouraged this kind of research if you really want to take charge of your diet. I already knew this... I knew that restaurants had much higher calorie foods (and very fattening) than it would be if you made them at home... But I was shocked and let down all at the same time. It turns out that I ate a 3000 calorie meal. (I'll close my ears while you gasp) I did great... but the onion rings were 2000 calories all by there little selves, and the two awesome sauces that go along with them... 500 combined. Had I not given in and had them I would have had a 500 calorie meal.

I will admit I was upset with myself. It made me feel like my efforts were all for nothing. How could I ruin it that much for myself. Alas... I have decided to really learn from this experience. I learn something about myself. On day 1 of my blog I posted about being accountable to myself and not letting myself get away with things... well this is my way of doing it. Not my intention, but the I again it is. I'm reading this other book (Okay I have about 5 books I am currently reading right now... don't try this at home) about personal finance and it speaks about non-decisions. When your excuses are "how was I suppose to know that" or "nobody ever told me" or "I didn't know I was doing anything wrong" etc... this is when instead of taking responsibility for our ignorance we shift the blame. Like you don't know how to refinance your mortgage.... so you don't or when you don't know how to properly exercise... so you don't. I commonly do this to myself.... I don't know how... so I won't and then when something happens... how was I suppose to know, no one ever told me. This incident at dinner is a perfect example. I have an iPhone.... I could have easily had the information in a matter of seconds... (I really didn't think about it at all at the moment, but I promise I'll be more aware next time)... yet I decided to go ahead and eat them because it's my anniversary and I'm doing so good and blah blah blah.... I chose to eat them.. and when I did find out just how smart my idea was, my first thought was to think.... but I didn't know... I thought.... then I just stopped myself. If I don't take control... who is? Besides it's not like I can tell me body.... "Hey I really didn't know so if we could let this one slide next time I promise I won't do this...."

Other news... I had my 'Aha moment'!!! You know how they say to do what you love... and sometimes what you love is just under your nose.... well I feel completely inspired. I know what I want to do as my next career move. I want to change peoples lives! Okay that may be a little to broad. I want to help people take control of their lives through weight loss. I've thought about becoming a trainer before... but today it just clicked. I have been watching the biggest loser since Day 1... it is one of my most favorite shows. Last week I was talking with my relatives about opening up a weight loss/ healthy lifestyles place... that was more than a gym. Dr. Oz gave me part of the idea... and then biggest loser helped fill in some holes... So I was thinking about this on my 18 hour drive home... and then I began reading (I know I know.... but I love to read man) Jillian Michaels new book 'Mastering your metabolism' and she wrote about how she first got started. I just feel so passionate about it! (BTW... Jillian if you are reading this... I don't wanna be your competition lol) Well... so then today I looked in on the gym that I can't wait to be opened and finished and they had equipment in there... but no one was inside... they had an office for recruiting new members so I decided to pop in and see when they are open. As I was walking in I got this idea to ask if they had filled all their positions. A little more info, I've been looking for another job to do along with my part-time job. I would like to work from like 6am - 12 or 1pm and then I can go do my other little job for a few hours and then home. After talking to the guy I found out that they already filled all the positions about 2 weeks ago... But the guy told me that in the first couple months they usually have some who decide that this really wasn't what they wanted so I should keep trying back. I told him that I was looking for the early morning shift.. and he told me that it's a hard shift to get into, but the guy that currently has it has to keep it for 6 months and then he will become the manager... so there potentially is going to be a job opening. I'm so excited... It's not even funny. I see this as a baby step to get to where I want to be.
Everything just kinda fits together in my mind. I love psychology... and started my degree pursuing it then switched to business. So I would love to finish with business, minor with psychology.. and then also become a certified trainer. (I have no idea how to do that yet...)

So first off.... I am my own project. My first success story! That means I need to keep sticking to my goals. I'm right no track heading in the right direction. Man... I just feel like for once in my life ... it just all makes sense...

Quick diet update... today I finally got back on track with my schedule. I missed breakfast... I know I know... and ate an early lunch. I went grocery shopping and had a wonderful dinner. I got a George Foreman Lean Mean Grilling Fat Reducing Machine (something like that) and I busted that baby out and grilled some chicken. I made mushrooms and fresh green beans. I love green beans.... but now I totally love fresh ones. I thought I wouldn't like them because of some fear I had while growing up of vegetables... (apparently a lot of kids have it) but in the past couple of years I have been more adventurous. I always hated tomatoes.... now I love them... I was never an onion eater.... now I love them.... and bell peppers forget it.... NOW I love sauteing them with a lil EVOO and eating them with Kielbasa YUM... sorry I like food.... anyways I've been adventurous and I love fresh green beans...

More tomorrow.. I hope everyone is having a wonderful day!
Love Always,


  1. Wow, that is awesome that you might have a job at a gym. That must be a great feeling to realize what you would love to be doing. =) Oh, and you have an award to pick up over at my blog, too, if you want it! It's a couple posts down, but still on the main page.

  2. I think working at the gym would definitely keep your eyes on your goal. Good luck!

  3. Just came across your blog....

    I can't believe those onion rings had that many calories. Our Bahama Breeze is opening soon. Guess I won't order the onion rings :)